Turk: What's up with these rocks!?
J.D.: HAH! You've been graveled!
Turk: "Graveled"??
J.D.: Yeah, it's a game I made up this morning when I had rocks in my shoes.
Turk: [thinks] I like it.
J.D.: Better than Play-Doh Pants?
Turk: Play-Doh Pants became all about the money.
J.D.: Wise!
- Scrubs
Things I did since my last post:
- I got my first article in the school paper published.
- I spray-painted my hair blonde, but it ended up being green.
- I met a kid who looked like Captain Jack Sparrow.
- I got really drunk on Halloween.
- I lost my voice during the Notre Dame/Tennessee football game.
- I bought a black spiked "punk" belt.
- I learned how to play the opening to "Enter Sandman" on my acoustic.
- I helped someone I really like with relationship advice not concerning me.
- I watched Mortal Kombat: The Movie for the 26th time.
- I got a B on a test for a class I hadn't attended in 12 weeks.
- I bought a sweet-looking Fender Guitar shirt with a firebird on the chest.
- I got a lot of compromising pictures of me on Halloween developed.
- I bought a pair of Aviator Glasses (Finally!)
- I got assigned an article I have no interest in doing.
- I was told by my professor that his daughter needs a new boyfriend.
- I became obcessed with Ryan Adams (No, not Brian. Ryan doesn't suck.)
- I dropped my cell phone onto cement on 7 different occasions.
- I bought a gigantic plastic jug of crappy Vodka out of boredom.
- I stared at a wall for two hours. A new personal record.
- I discovered that I sick my thumb when I sleep.
- I got a new AOL Screen Name (ColinKSU!)
- I went into Abercrombie & Fitch for the first time.
- I left Abercrombie & Fitch feeling like a loser for the first time.
- I tried to make "The Colin" my new official nick name.
- I failed miserably.
- I watched "Garden State" three times in one day.
- I still couldn't figure out how Bruce Springstein is so beloved.
- I had an El Ranchero Wrap yesterday, and I can still taste it's awesomeness.
- I smoked my first Cuban Cigar. It was heavenly.
- I passed my final math class of my life with a B. Good enough.
- I got to see John Kerry fail in his bid for the Presidency.
- I played a lot of NCAA 2005 Football. A lot.
- I discovered that "alot" is actually spelled "a lot".
- I found out that Chocolate Whey Protein tastes a lot better than Vanilla.
- I kept letting my hair grow out. Won't stop 'till Mulletville!
- I was reminded why Justin Timberlake is my hero.
- I forgot what happened to the front-left hubcap on my car. It's missing.
- I watched Scrubs for the first time in two weeks tonight.
- I was amazed at how hot Julianna Margulies is with straight hair.
- I bowed at the altar of Zack Braff once again. The Hit List grows again.
- I opened my closet and realized everything in it came from Old Navy.
- I discovered how badly Knuckle Pushups hurt when you do them on carpet.
- I made a new buddy who writes for the Stater too. Friends are always good.
- I lost my Groucho Marx glasses, found them again, then lost them again.
- I downed an entire bottle of Chloroseptic.
- I somehow became even whiter in the skin department.
- I discovered I can't grow hair on one side of my face yet.
- I found out that a four-blade razor is bad news for sensitive skin.
- I re-discovered my love of Cinnamon Oatmeal.
- I saw pictures of me doing stuff on Halloween that I don't remember doing.
- I updated my Blog...Finally.
Ziech lue,
Colin
Saturday, October 23, 2004
Up in my lonely room
When I'm dreaming of you
Oh what can I do
I still need you, but
I don't want you now
- "Dreaming Of You" (The Coral)
Eh...I don't want this post to be a pitty post, I really don't. But it's really starting to look like that's what it'll be, so if you don't want to read it...Scroll down to my "I hate John Kerry" post and enjoy (or bash) that one and skip this.
You know what...Screw it. I don't know what I want to put here. I'm feeling like shit right now, and my mental state is a bit of a wreck from tonight. I just want to be attractive in someone's eyes. That's all I feel like writing.
Good night,
Colin
When I'm dreaming of you
Oh what can I do
I still need you, but
I don't want you now
- "Dreaming Of You" (The Coral)
Eh...I don't want this post to be a pitty post, I really don't. But it's really starting to look like that's what it'll be, so if you don't want to read it...Scroll down to my "I hate John Kerry" post and enjoy (or bash) that one and skip this.
You know what...Screw it. I don't know what I want to put here. I'm feeling like shit right now, and my mental state is a bit of a wreck from tonight. I just want to be attractive in someone's eyes. That's all I feel like writing.
Good night,
Colin
Friday, October 22, 2004
Freedom isn't free
No, there's a hefty fuckin' fee
And if you don't throw in your buck o'five
...Who will?
- "Freedom Isn't Free" (D.V.D.A.)
Why are college campuses so obcessed over getting John Kerry into office?I walk around this school every day and all I see are Kerry posters and Kerry propaganda surrounding me. This is something I just can't understand...Why are a bunch of college students who spend more time worrying about hooking up with random sloots and drinking their asses off worried about who's in office? Why John Kerry? Is it because he's not George W. Bush? What makes Kerry such an amazing canidate for office? While we're on the topic...Why are they so anti-Bush? Is it because ass-clowns like Michael Moore infected their brains with their half-truths and whole lies? Want to know what I think the two reasons people my age will usually give?
1) He's going to bring the draft back.
2) He's a stupid head.
Now, #2 is such a pointlessly stupid argument that it doesn't even deserve my attention, so I'll go with #1.
The Draft. The forced enrollment of millions of hundreds of thousands of US citizens age 18-25 in the United States Armed Forces. Something the Democrats have used as a tool to turn people away from George W. Bush and his re-election campaign and towards Democratic canidate John Kerry, who is promising that there will never be a draft under his regime.
Want to know something interesting? There has been two bills proposed to Congress dealing with a draft in recent memory. Who proposed those bills? Sen. Ernest Hollings of South Carolina and Rep. Charles Rangel of New York. What do they have in common?
...They're both Democrats.
There is a canidate for election who has made mandatory governmental service *Cough*Draft*Cough* a primary objective to be completed by the first 100 days of his term of office and his name isn't Bush.
From a cache of John Kerry's official website, this was an offical campaign promise that was put away for safe keeping once the Democrats decided to use the threat of a draft to attack George W. Bush:
http://www.mcgath.com/kerryslavery.html
(Oh, and in case you're curious...We had the whole "Free College for 2 years in the military" thing back in 60s, and that didn't stop Kerry and like-mided people from whining and complaining about it.)
Sooo...What do you call someone who preaches that the Bush administration has a secret plan in the works to bring the draft back, but at the same time, wants to secretly implement mandatory government service?
Look at it this way...This is John Kerry. We should be used to him lying and hiding things to appeal to popular opinion by now. That's how he's gotten this far, isn't it?
So fellow college students? Next time you wave that John Kerry banner proudly and spit on everything George W. Bush...Think about what you're trying to elect into office.
Oh, and just for shits and giggles, here's a picture of Kerry in the NORTH Vietnam (That's the communist one we fought in the Vietnam War, if you're wondering) Communist War Remnants Museum, which honors foreigners who contributed to their "victory" over America in the Vietnam War:
...And we want him as our president, why? Oh that's right, because his name isn't George W. Bush. Pathetic reasoning, isn't it?
You know, what's interesting about this election is that I really have no respect for either canidate. I don't like John Kerry because he'll quite literally say ANYTHING he has to to get into office, and I don't and never have approved of the way George Bush has handled the war and relations with our foreign partners, so you know what I'm going to do?
...Not vote for a Presidential canidate.
What people fail to realize is that voting for a canidate just to vote is a terrible waste of our right to vote. Just because you CAN do something doesn't mean you SHOULD. I can buy a shotgun at Wal-Mart right now and kill someone with it as I leave the store. Should I do that? No. Should I vote for Kerry or Bush just because I have the right to vote, even through I don't think either canidate deserves my vote? No.
Im my opinion, it's better to vote on local issues that will effect on a more immediate level. It's not a shame to pass on voting for the presidential election because you either are not informed enough on the topic or don't approve of the canidates running. What IS a shame, however, is going out and voting because you have been told that you HAVE to. You're not helping the country out by voting out of obligation and not free-will. THAT is a waste of a vote, my friends.
Oh, and P. Diddy? "Vote or Die" can suck it right here, pal...
Lòi chào xin cào biêt,
Colin
No, there's a hefty fuckin' fee
And if you don't throw in your buck o'five
...Who will?
- "Freedom Isn't Free" (D.V.D.A.)
Why are college campuses so obcessed over getting John Kerry into office?I walk around this school every day and all I see are Kerry posters and Kerry propaganda surrounding me. This is something I just can't understand...Why are a bunch of college students who spend more time worrying about hooking up with random sloots and drinking their asses off worried about who's in office? Why John Kerry? Is it because he's not George W. Bush? What makes Kerry such an amazing canidate for office? While we're on the topic...Why are they so anti-Bush? Is it because ass-clowns like Michael Moore infected their brains with their half-truths and whole lies? Want to know what I think the two reasons people my age will usually give?
1) He's going to bring the draft back.
2) He's a stupid head.
Now, #2 is such a pointlessly stupid argument that it doesn't even deserve my attention, so I'll go with #1.
The Draft. The forced enrollment of millions of hundreds of thousands of US citizens age 18-25 in the United States Armed Forces. Something the Democrats have used as a tool to turn people away from George W. Bush and his re-election campaign and towards Democratic canidate John Kerry, who is promising that there will never be a draft under his regime.
Want to know something interesting? There has been two bills proposed to Congress dealing with a draft in recent memory. Who proposed those bills? Sen. Ernest Hollings of South Carolina and Rep. Charles Rangel of New York. What do they have in common?
...They're both Democrats.
There is a canidate for election who has made mandatory governmental service *Cough*Draft*Cough* a primary objective to be completed by the first 100 days of his term of office and his name isn't Bush.
From a cache of John Kerry's official website, this was an offical campaign promise that was put away for safe keeping once the Democrats decided to use the threat of a draft to attack George W. Bush:
http://www.mcgath.com/kerryslavery.html
(Oh, and in case you're curious...We had the whole "Free College for 2 years in the military" thing back in 60s, and that didn't stop Kerry and like-mided people from whining and complaining about it.)
Sooo...What do you call someone who preaches that the Bush administration has a secret plan in the works to bring the draft back, but at the same time, wants to secretly implement mandatory government service?
Look at it this way...This is John Kerry. We should be used to him lying and hiding things to appeal to popular opinion by now. That's how he's gotten this far, isn't it?
So fellow college students? Next time you wave that John Kerry banner proudly and spit on everything George W. Bush...Think about what you're trying to elect into office.
Oh, and just for shits and giggles, here's a picture of Kerry in the NORTH Vietnam (That's the communist one we fought in the Vietnam War, if you're wondering) Communist War Remnants Museum, which honors foreigners who contributed to their "victory" over America in the Vietnam War:
...And we want him as our president, why? Oh that's right, because his name isn't George W. Bush. Pathetic reasoning, isn't it?
You know, what's interesting about this election is that I really have no respect for either canidate. I don't like John Kerry because he'll quite literally say ANYTHING he has to to get into office, and I don't and never have approved of the way George Bush has handled the war and relations with our foreign partners, so you know what I'm going to do?
...Not vote for a Presidential canidate.
What people fail to realize is that voting for a canidate just to vote is a terrible waste of our right to vote. Just because you CAN do something doesn't mean you SHOULD. I can buy a shotgun at Wal-Mart right now and kill someone with it as I leave the store. Should I do that? No. Should I vote for Kerry or Bush just because I have the right to vote, even through I don't think either canidate deserves my vote? No.
Im my opinion, it's better to vote on local issues that will effect on a more immediate level. It's not a shame to pass on voting for the presidential election because you either are not informed enough on the topic or don't approve of the canidates running. What IS a shame, however, is going out and voting because you have been told that you HAVE to. You're not helping the country out by voting out of obligation and not free-will. THAT is a waste of a vote, my friends.
Oh, and P. Diddy? "Vote or Die" can suck it right here, pal...
Lòi chào xin cào biêt,
Colin
Thursday, October 14, 2004
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
- "Come Around" (Rhett Miller)
Have you ever gotten to a point in your life where...You just shut it off? Where you get so frustrated with things that some sense of nirvana sweeps over you and you just shut it off? You open your eyes in bed one day, look around, grasp an idea of your surrounding and situation, and just say...Alright. Maybe this'll all work out.
I don't know if it's the right way to go about things, but I've started to just take a step out of my body and look around at my surrounds, and you know what I find myself doing more often than not?
Laughing.
I don't know why, though. I really don't. I just find myself laughing. I don't know, maybe for once...I'm starting to think it's not me. Maybe for once, I'm starting to throw it off and give into the possibility that someone else made the mistake for once, you know?
Things that have blown up in my face...Maybe it wasn't all my fault. I think I might finally be realizing that all people are messed up. I'm not on an island. That perfect person? They're not perfect. They just hide it better than I guess I do. You know, my Kindergarten teacher did say that I was an exceptionaly sensitive person...I think she said that because of the time I stood up for my best friend Tyler when the class bully Jamie was giving him a hard time and she punched me in the nose for my troubles. Yes...I said she. She said I was sentive, not a great fighter, and besides...That girl was big boned and missed out on nap time because she was forced to sit in the corner. There was nothing I could do. She was like a bull who saw red.
You know, maybe if I go out there and just stay true to myself...Be myself for once...It'll work out. I know I'm crazy, you know I'm crazy, but maybe that's cool. Maybe that's what I have to be to get by in this life...Myself...Crazy...
...Maybe that's it. Maybe that's the ticket.
Budte zdorovi,
Colin
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
- "Come Around" (Rhett Miller)
Have you ever gotten to a point in your life where...You just shut it off? Where you get so frustrated with things that some sense of nirvana sweeps over you and you just shut it off? You open your eyes in bed one day, look around, grasp an idea of your surrounding and situation, and just say...Alright. Maybe this'll all work out.
I don't know if it's the right way to go about things, but I've started to just take a step out of my body and look around at my surrounds, and you know what I find myself doing more often than not?
Laughing.
I don't know why, though. I really don't. I just find myself laughing. I don't know, maybe for once...I'm starting to think it's not me. Maybe for once, I'm starting to throw it off and give into the possibility that someone else made the mistake for once, you know?
Things that have blown up in my face...Maybe it wasn't all my fault. I think I might finally be realizing that all people are messed up. I'm not on an island. That perfect person? They're not perfect. They just hide it better than I guess I do. You know, my Kindergarten teacher did say that I was an exceptionaly sensitive person...I think she said that because of the time I stood up for my best friend Tyler when the class bully Jamie was giving him a hard time and she punched me in the nose for my troubles. Yes...I said she. She said I was sentive, not a great fighter, and besides...That girl was big boned and missed out on nap time because she was forced to sit in the corner. There was nothing I could do. She was like a bull who saw red.
You know, maybe if I go out there and just stay true to myself...Be myself for once...It'll work out. I know I'm crazy, you know I'm crazy, but maybe that's cool. Maybe that's what I have to be to get by in this life...Myself...Crazy...
...Maybe that's it. Maybe that's the ticket.
Budte zdorovi,
Colin
Sunday, October 10, 2004
So take me,
Don't leave me
Take me,
Don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you
- "Love Will Come Through" (Travis)
Alright, I really need to make this known right off the bat. For months, I've been building this blog with the reasoning that if I show off the more light-hearted side of me, then some kind of pre-determined response would come to fruition and I'd be suddenly a happy person with everything I've wanted in my life...
...That didn't happen.
I've spent a lot of time pouring myself into this blog and it's really left me with more questions than answers. I wanted to do this to find something out about myself, and I don't think I've done that yet. I've been doing this blog for almost a year now, and I'm still the same confused boy I was when I started it. I'm still riddled with the same insecurities and the same doubts that I was when I started, so what good has this served? I don't honestly know, to be honest. So, where does this leave me in this point of my life?
I've changed myself a lot since the day I started this blog. Some good, some bad. You know what it is, it's kind of odd. I think as I've changed my physical appearence more, I've become less of what I want to be mentally. I'm starting to really dislike myself more and more as I get in better shape. Does that even make sense? I've lost a lot of weight since I started this blog...I'm down to 135lbs. as of last night. I've gotten in the best shape I've been in in...I don't even know. Possibly ever. I've done all of this to impress someone in particular, I suppose. I hoped that if I changed my one percieved glaring flaw, things would change. It didn't work. It never worked. I was fighting an up-hill battle from day one, and I just never realized it...I never wanted to realize it...What has happened since this year started has made me realize just how little of a chance I ever had in this situation. That's left me incredibly bitter. I've really never felt like this before in my life, and I don't know how to fix it.
Will this blog change? I think it really will. I'm through trying to impress people with this thing...I'm going to let it all out here from now on. If you don't like that...If you miss the humorous Colin...If you miss the stupid jokes and songs...Read my old posts. That's not who I am. If that's what you thought I was, I'm sorry for leading you on. I'm not one joke after another...You're probably not going to find someone who's more different on the inside than what they are on the outside than me. I've probably got enough insecurities to kill a Bull Elephant and because of that, I fully plan on using this thing as a way to get my deepest thoughts and frustrations out before they eat me alive.
I guess...I guess all I really wanted was to just be accepted by someone, I suppose. I'm so tired of it, I really am. I'm tired of living my life in a "blah" state. I'm tired of being the bridesmaid and never the bride, so to speak. They say that things happen when you least expect it, but when I'm 95 years old a bitter old man...Then what? Will love come through then? Will everyone who told me that have lived their lives with someone they love? Probably so. Will I? Probably not. I've got to learn to accept that...
Ha det bra,
Colin
Don't leave me
Take me,
Don't leave me
Baby, love will come through
It's just waiting for you
- "Love Will Come Through" (Travis)
Alright, I really need to make this known right off the bat. For months, I've been building this blog with the reasoning that if I show off the more light-hearted side of me, then some kind of pre-determined response would come to fruition and I'd be suddenly a happy person with everything I've wanted in my life...
...That didn't happen.
I've spent a lot of time pouring myself into this blog and it's really left me with more questions than answers. I wanted to do this to find something out about myself, and I don't think I've done that yet. I've been doing this blog for almost a year now, and I'm still the same confused boy I was when I started it. I'm still riddled with the same insecurities and the same doubts that I was when I started, so what good has this served? I don't honestly know, to be honest. So, where does this leave me in this point of my life?
I've changed myself a lot since the day I started this blog. Some good, some bad. You know what it is, it's kind of odd. I think as I've changed my physical appearence more, I've become less of what I want to be mentally. I'm starting to really dislike myself more and more as I get in better shape. Does that even make sense? I've lost a lot of weight since I started this blog...I'm down to 135lbs. as of last night. I've gotten in the best shape I've been in in...I don't even know. Possibly ever. I've done all of this to impress someone in particular, I suppose. I hoped that if I changed my one percieved glaring flaw, things would change. It didn't work. It never worked. I was fighting an up-hill battle from day one, and I just never realized it...I never wanted to realize it...What has happened since this year started has made me realize just how little of a chance I ever had in this situation. That's left me incredibly bitter. I've really never felt like this before in my life, and I don't know how to fix it.
Will this blog change? I think it really will. I'm through trying to impress people with this thing...I'm going to let it all out here from now on. If you don't like that...If you miss the humorous Colin...If you miss the stupid jokes and songs...Read my old posts. That's not who I am. If that's what you thought I was, I'm sorry for leading you on. I'm not one joke after another...You're probably not going to find someone who's more different on the inside than what they are on the outside than me. I've probably got enough insecurities to kill a Bull Elephant and because of that, I fully plan on using this thing as a way to get my deepest thoughts and frustrations out before they eat me alive.
I guess...I guess all I really wanted was to just be accepted by someone, I suppose. I'm so tired of it, I really am. I'm tired of living my life in a "blah" state. I'm tired of being the bridesmaid and never the bride, so to speak. They say that things happen when you least expect it, but when I'm 95 years old a bitter old man...Then what? Will love come through then? Will everyone who told me that have lived their lives with someone they love? Probably so. Will I? Probably not. I've got to learn to accept that...
Ha det bra,
Colin
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