Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Am I gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
I'm gonna be lonely for the rest of my life
Unless you come around
So come around
- "Come Around" (Rhett Miller)
Have you ever gotten to a point in your life where...You just shut it off? Where you get so frustrated with things that some sense of nirvana sweeps over you and you just shut it off? You open your eyes in bed one day, look around, grasp an idea of your surrounding and situation, and just say...Alright. Maybe this'll all work out.
I don't know if it's the right way to go about things, but I've started to just take a step out of my body and look around at my surrounds, and you know what I find myself doing more often than not?
Laughing.
I don't know why, though. I really don't. I just find myself laughing. I don't know, maybe for once...I'm starting to think it's not me. Maybe for once, I'm starting to throw it off and give into the possibility that someone else made the mistake for once, you know?
Things that have blown up in my face...Maybe it wasn't all my fault. I think I might finally be realizing that all people are messed up. I'm not on an island. That perfect person? They're not perfect. They just hide it better than I guess I do. You know, my Kindergarten teacher did say that I was an exceptionaly sensitive person...I think she said that because of the time I stood up for my best friend Tyler when the class bully Jamie was giving him a hard time and she punched me in the nose for my troubles. Yes...I said she. She said I was sentive, not a great fighter, and besides...That girl was big boned and missed out on nap time because she was forced to sit in the corner. There was nothing I could do. She was like a bull who saw red.
You know, maybe if I go out there and just stay true to myself...Be myself for once...It'll work out. I know I'm crazy, you know I'm crazy, but maybe that's cool. Maybe that's what I have to be to get by in this life...Myself...Crazy...
...Maybe that's it. Maybe that's the ticket.
Budte zdorovi,
Colin
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